Stardate 02.06.2026
Do you remember that scene in Cast Away when Tom Hanks wakes up and realizes Wilson is drifting away?
That moment lodged itself deep in my heart. My pulse raced. Tears streamed down my face. Even now—twenty-five years after the movie first hit theaters—I can feel it like it happened yesterday.
Maybe that’s why my heart skipped a beat the day a volleyball with Wilson’s face on it was returned to lost and found at my day job.
No one claimed him.
When I heard he was headed for the trash compactor, I spoke up—loudly. And just like that, Wilson was mine.
Once I adopted him, he went everywhere with me. It was like having a new puppy… but easier. No messes. No late-night walks. No early-morning wakeups. Just presence.
Wilson became my new best friend.
When the pandemic halted my travels, I did the next best thing I could for my travel buddy.
I FedExed him to New York City.
A dear friend, Erin, was battling cancer. Wilson showed up for her the same way he had shown up for me—with quiet companionship, emotional support, and steady presence. I could see it in her eyes when she sent me a photo of herself, Wilson, and her real-life pet gathered together.
Sadly, Wilson dribbled out of my life forever when Erin passed away.
I slipped into depression. And it wasn’t until I entered therapy that I learned something important: it’s okay to grieve something like this. Even something others might not understand.
Wilson was gone—but somehow, his spirit wasn’t. Maybe it was the memories. Maybe it was love refusing to disappear.
Some time later, while walking along a river on the way to Blarney Castle in Ireland, something caught my eye.
A red volleyball.
It was drifting alongside the path, as if placed there on purpose.
The sight jolted me like a bolt of lightning. A flood of memories rushed in. Moments later, I kissed the Blarney Stone—legend says it gives you the gift of gab. That red volleyball felt like the exclamation point at the end of the sentence.
Suddenly, inspiration returned—charging like the bulls through the streets of Spain.
Olé.
I went home from that pilgrimage with my writing mojo packed neatly in my suitcase.
What I learned is this: losing Wilson helped me explore the deepest crevices of my heart. Inside those dark caverns, I faced other losses too. And I learned something else—there is recovery.
I’m still learning that now.
The good news? There is joy in sharing what those losses have taught me. There is life after death. And there is always more of the story to come.
Come back on St. Patrick’s Day, and I’ll share the rest.
Have a great day.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18
Captain’s Addendum
Bones: “Michael, are you telling me you mourned a volleyball like a fallen crewman?”
Spock: “Doctor, attachment is not illogical when it reflects genuine connection.”
Bones: “I still say Starfleet doesn’t prepare us for this.”
Michael’s Reflection:
What I know now is this—grief doesn’t ask permission. It simply shows up where love once lived. And if we let it, grief can become a teacher rather than a thief.
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Mission Log
Some losses never leave us—but they can still lead us forward.
Thank you for carrying this story with me today. May it rest gently with you, wherever you are, and may it open a quiet space for healing and remembrance.
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